I feel ( and please correct me if I am wrong) that most people havent a clue what you are going through let alone have much idea about mental health, we all try to make posative comments but to quote my late Dad
" never judge a mans condition until you have been in his position"
I reall do hope you can get the help and support you need to get your life back on track, my words alone just cant help I wish they could.
I used to live near a massive mental hospital, its been knocked down, the patients havent dissapeared just ended up dead, in prision, hospital etc, its terrible what has happened these people need good care now its all gone, if only every one understood how difficult and common mental health issues are.
Now back to the door bell, remember any one important has a key